"Our God is in the heavens. He does all that he pleases." Psalm 115,3
My life is messy, chaotic and so much less forseeable than I would chose for it to be. I live in a home, where people come, stay for a season and move on. LIV Lanseria is not known for its great communication, so there is always a lot of spontaneous things going on. Weeks fly by, each day filled with new people, new plans, new visions, new steps; there is always something different than the day before. Many of these things are great, but as they all add up the feeling of being "out of control" becomes very strong. I have known for years that the assumption that I am in control of my life is an illusion. But I am still more comfortable being able to keep up that illusion or at least to develop strategies for the changes that constantly roll over me like waves. It is stressful and overwhelming at times, running after stretegies and plans, as they crumble in my hands.
So last week it hit me again. I got some news of changes that affect my living as well as working and threw off plans made just weeks before.
I want to trust God, but it is a battle. I spoke to a dear friend of mine. She helped me remember, that I need to SURRENDER to God, who is the only one in control, instead of getting frustrated and fighting the changes.
Do I trust God enough that he knows what is best for me?
Do I trust God enough, that he is not surprised or caught off guard?
Do I trust God enough that he is gonna use all circumstances for my good?
And so I let go of all the things I don`t have control over and I accept the things God puts in front of me every day anew. There is a lot of freedom in acknowledging God`s sovereinity and my own dependance on the most mighty and loving Father.
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”